I Kings 19: 11-13
"Between Hopelessness and Hope"
The Gospel of Mark, after detailing so precisely the events of the week - and in 3 hour increments the events of Friday - says nothing about Saturday, the sabbath day. The day of rest. And for the followers of Jesus, the day of numbness and loss.
And so my prayer today is for those who felt the sting of Jesus' death all too closely. It is also for those, living today, who have ever felt as though God has left them, and rolled a stone of finality over the hope in their lives.
Today. Today I wait. O God.
My mouth is dry. My heart is numb. My eyes have nothing left to shed.
Does the world go on around me and it is I who cannot move?
Am I the only one who is staring into the face of rock solid emptiness?
O Lord, if it was something I did, can you give me just one more chance?
O Lord, if just one mind could have been changed to have prevented this…I would try.
But the thought of you having anything to do with the horror of this whole mess…no I cannot go there.
And so, you must be gone. But I pray that you will return in glory more magnificent than before.
O God, your people ache.
Today. Today I wait.
I wait for a still, small voice to tell us that you are here.
And that this ending, this… death… is not the final word.
I wait for things I cannot be sure of.